Saturday, May 16, 2009

Talking Trash

Well another few weeks have passed by and I still haven't managed to get back to anything creative. I'm sure it will come, I'm starting to get a few ideas but just not the confidence or motivation to get started on anything yet.

Instead, for the sake of having something to post, I thought I'd share a couple of things that I did at the very beginning of the year but in all the upheaval never got round to posting.

2008 was a difficult year in my personal life for a reason that I won't share here, but suffice to say I was left very shook up by one event, for most of the year I wandered round in a daze but didn't realise it until I finally 'woke up' in the weeks before Christmas. I had begun to feel like the old me again, full of dreams and plans for adventure, I was so convinced that 2009 was going to be one of the best that I planned to commemorate it in the best way I know how, stitch.
This was going to be the centre-piece.

I also made this from a mini kit which I thought would be perfect to symbolise the dawn of the new year and the start of my journey to really find myself and happiness again.

I planned to make more patches like the cockerel to add to this to commemorate all of the good things that happened this year. It seemed like a good idea at the time, already I had a trip to Cornwall to celebrate, a surprise trip to Rome that I'd booked, plans for Marrakesh and of course summer camping trips to look forward to. As well as the prospect of every day joys to record, maybe a beautiful sunset or the blooming of beautiful spring flowers.......
In just a few short days that all came crashing down around me, part of me feels like an idiot even sharing this with you now, I feel foolish for having dreamed so high and now to have been bought so low.
I'm sure the cockerel will be recycled in to a different project sometime in the future, as for 2009, well it's certainly not a year to be celebrated so that piece will be shredded and added to the trash.

10 comments:

Miss 376 said...

I often think about how you are doing. It will take some time, but you will get your creative juices flowing again. The cockerel is beautifully stitched

Carol said...

don't ever stop dreaming, it may take time but you will feel like creating again. sending hug and some creative vibes:)

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Andrea said...

I often wonder how you are too - keep doing what you have to do to get through and hopefully the second half of the year will be better than the first xx

Vicki said...

It's never "talking trash", it's letting old wounds heal, and by doing this post you are taking some more steps in the healing process.

As Carol said above, don't ever stop dreaming. Sometimes our dreams don't make it on the first go around. We may need to go back and tweak some aspects of those dreams but we've got to keep trying. Never stop dreaimg.

Sending positive, creative thoughts and warm hugs your way.

katelnorth said...

Nice to see you post - not "trash" at all. I love the rooster stitchery, would really like to see that used for something else, someday - I'm sure its time will come. Sending good thoughts your way.

KimP said...

So good to hear from you! Angela, don't ever feel embarrassed about the plans you had - they sprung naturally from the goodness in your heart. You are healing, so take photos when you don't feel like sewing, and if you don't feel like taking pictures, just take a walk instead. I have been there. Just put one foot in front of the other, and life will be better than you have ever dreamed!

dawn.u said...

I'm SO pleased to see you back.

Vicki W said...

I was working on my cat cross stitch this week and was thinking about you. It's good to see you back!

Barb's Blurbs said...

Glad to see you back again. I've been off blogger myself for a while but just too busy! Time will be a great healer. You have LOADS of friends out here!